[...right to the point, huh. ishi is quiet for several moments there, eyes fixed down, before he exhales a slow breath and speaks.]
... I am not sure I would call it normal for me, though it would be for most of us, yes. I hate killing-- I was enshrined for most of my existence, and was dedicated to healing, to cutting away what plagued those who visited the shrine. If it were possible to save everyone, if I had that sort of power... I wouldn't let anyone die.
[his brow furrows there.]
But neither can I deny what I am, or what I was made for. I hate killing, but I will do what is necessary; I have had to do so before coming here, as well. I've experienced war.
[ on the one hand, ishi actively betrayed majima's trust for his own personal goals. no matter how good his intentions were, the sword ultimately set the both of them up to fail.
on the other... majima cannot disparage him for staying true to his ideals, for doing what he believes in—in this case, the greater good—rather than what's "right." he could have easily said no and exposed ishi as soon as they had stepped behind the screen together. ]
I dunno what ya want me to say, Ishikiri-jisan.
[ at the very least, there is no bitterness in his voice. if anything, he just sounds... tired. ]
...there is nothing in particular I expect you to say, Majima-kun.
[ishi shakes his head, there, glancing back up to majima.]
I do not expect your trust-- I have not admitted all of this to you solely in hopes of gaining it back. That is all up to you, and I will not blame you should you choose not to extend it to me after what I have done.
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... I am not sure I would call it normal for me, though it would be for most of us, yes. I hate killing-- I was enshrined for most of my existence, and was dedicated to healing, to cutting away what plagued those who visited the shrine. If it were possible to save everyone, if I had that sort of power... I wouldn't let anyone die.
[his brow furrows there.]
But neither can I deny what I am, or what I was made for. I hate killing, but I will do what is necessary; I have had to do so before coming here, as well. I've experienced war.
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on the other... majima cannot disparage him for staying true to his ideals, for doing what he believes in—in this case, the greater good—rather than what's "right." he could have easily said no and exposed ishi as soon as they had stepped behind the screen together. ]
I dunno what ya want me to say, Ishikiri-jisan.
[ at the very least, there is no bitterness in his voice. if anything, he just sounds... tired. ]
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[ishi shakes his head, there, glancing back up to majima.]
I do not expect your trust-- I have not admitted all of this to you solely in hopes of gaining it back. That is all up to you, and I will not blame you should you choose not to extend it to me after what I have done.
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As long as Mizuki trusts ya—[ whoa, no nickname or honorific ]—I will, too.
[ he takes a deep breath. ]
Just don't pull that shit again, ya hear? Ya might lose more than a hand if ya cross me twice.